Cupid's chokehold. hearts..

        It's midnight and I am facebooking as usual. It's pretty odd as he is not here to skype with me and I feel damn bored. Gosh, tomorrow sucks ! Btw, as I am networking now plus I don't have anything to do, I google some Valentines quotes and I found a few that caught my attention.

Love consists in desiring to give what is our own to another and feeling his delight as our own." By Swedenborg

Love is not a matter of counting the years ... But making the years count." By Michelle Amanda

The most precious possession that ever comes to a man in this world is a woman's heart." By -Josiah G. Holland

      I love the third one, but still of course I like all of them. The third one is so sweet and meaningful to me. I hope it grows in every man's heart because women just need love. They need protection and appreciation :) She may be mad at you, acting like she hates you so much but actually there's still a tiny spot at the bottom of her heart that says 'I love you'.

      I talk to Hilmy about the same thing over and over again especially about my problems. Sometimes I am worried if he can't take it anymore and will leave me because I have changed a lot. But, he said 'Wtv it is, I love you just the way you are..'  When I am alone, I always think of him and start to wonder 'If we break up, will I ever find the same guy like him? My ex-boys really suck but hilmy isn't. What am I going to do? Who will be my dustbin to collect all my problems? Who will make me happy as I do now? No one'

      I admit that sometimes I just wanna test you, how far you can go with my crazy behaviour. You know, bad mood when I have my PMS, always become sensitive even with your littlest fault. Sounds silly right? The reason I did all those things is because I want to know how you mend my heart if it's broken. Sometimes you fail but sometimes you pass, most of the time it's in the middle of  'faiass' or 'fail or pass?' haha. lol

     He completes my life, more than my parents do. We are not just ordinary love birds who take things not seriously. Most people that I know, precisely couples, say that they are not too serious in relationship as they think that it is too young and they just wait for the right person in college. But some of the others say "yes, we will get married." Well, it's up to them. But, we have planned a lot of things for our future family, our wedding, children, further studies in UK. Almost everything. So, it will be a waste of our time if we don't make it until 9 years later. So, pray for our happiness in life forever after. Thank you :) xoxo

I love you Hilmy, I always do